Tuesday, October 16, 2012
A Shakespearean something
As someone that read quite a bit of Shakespeare in my undergrad, I found myself drawn in to this novel. However, I found that it was trying to hard to be the Da Vinci Code for Shakespeare. There was a wake of bodies that Kate leaves behind her, and there were so many competing threads, past and present, that I really found this book hard to get through. Some history, some theatre, some plot twists... parts are interesting, partly I stopped caring about some of the characters, now that I am done, I am quite relieved to be moving on to the next book. It felt like I had 100 pages left for a long, long time. I was so tired at night most of last week I was lucky to get through 5 pages before I had to put it down and close my eyes! I asked my dear friend that passed this book to me if she had read the second one, and she answered no. I suspect I know why now! LOL
On a total aside, I think I will officially have to retire my black flats after today. Nothing worse than when a favourite pairs of shoes cracks along the bottom and then the pieces start to pull apart. I have also been using "notes" on my iphone to make daily lists this week. It is helping me feel like I am at least making progress with my things I want/need to get done, but it just seems like that list is getting longer rather than shorter. I am not quite sure why everything seems to be so busy this fall, but it is. I have a week off in November, and I cannot wait. This has been a SLOG.
Underlying this has been almost an overwhelming feeling - of expectations, of things to do, of battles to fight. I had a meeting at B's school yesterday and I must admit that I left feeling emotionally manipulated. I was told by the principle they wanted me to leave mad so I would advocate and move towards action, but I could have already told them that I was more than prepared to do so and didn't need the game to be played out at my expense. To say the least. I am almost at a loss for words to describe how I feel. Needless to say, in a nutshell, B is not getting the services he should have at this point, and I will have to fight for them through the local school board. It is so brutal. These are not the battles I expected to fight along the way. Once I left the meeting, I just wanted to run and hide and cry. I wish I could cry easier - it would make moments like that easier to have that release. I then had to pull it all together and head back to work. Working full-time and trying to balance everything is such an art. An art I don't always feel like I have. Hence, I am grateful this week for the notes function, so I can start listing all the bits of things that I need to get done so I can actually keep track of it all.