Tuesday, August 16, 2016
This human condition thing is an interesting beast.
I really enjoyed this book. A different kind of heroine - at once, many different things: self aware of her size, confident, insecure, beautiful, funny, nasty, emerging into an older version of her self (AKA growing up).
It is great to see so many different voices, and how important they are to find. I was going to say as a young person, but hell, I am in my 40s and I enjoyed it and got something out of it... so it really isn't about age. It helps to hear different voices, different selves growing up, being insecure, making mistakes, being pulled in too many different directions at once. I didn't always like Willow, but we aren't meant to. She pissed me off sometimes and I wanted to smack her. I wasn't always comfortable - as a person who has never been small, there are some things written in this book I have definitely thought. I also love how female friendship is handled in this book, and power struggles, and how important honest communication is.
How hard is to quiet that voice in your hard? We all have that harshest critic that questions whether or not we are good enough. It is harder when you don't quite fit the normal mode, or the average. Yes, I can hear that voice saying to me but HEY, what is normal anyways? I would also say normal is whatever your experience is of this thing called life... but there are some experiences that are outside of what is generally experienced. Like when Willow says she hates going to a mall because 90% of what is inside won't fit her. There is truth in that statement. I can't say I like going to the mall. Select stores, maybe. I hate many things about the mall, feeling inadequate because the clothes in the trendy stores don't normally fit doesn't help. It is why I will never purchase lululemon clothes. Their whole thing that they aren't for fat people, and their small sizing and big pricing. Beauty comes in every size, and even folks who have some extra padding can be active and want some quality yoga pants. Even if I was a 10 or even a 12... owning a pair of lulus isn't the hill I am going to chase.
This is a quick, fast, enjoying coming of age novel from a larger gal down south in pageant country.