Mental note: in future, when learning how to knit something new... stick to a size or pattern that you have an actual pattern for. Don't start making stuff up as you go along, that isn't quite what learning a new skill is all about.
Currently I am working on my second pair of socks, for my youngest son. The first was fast! I finished the first one in a weekend, and then life got in the way the last few weeks. Enough time passed, that I forgot how I changed the original pattern I was working from (scaling down the original pattern to fit a small child and removing some cables, etc). Moving on to sock two, I hit a knitting wall. I got to the point where I have to "turn the heel" and froze. I completely turtled. Legs kicking up in the air. I kept looking at the pattern and it was like Greek to me. Couldn't figure out what I had done with the first sock. I kept going through YouTube, looking for the helpful videos I checked out the first time around.. nothing really looked all that familiar or helpful for that matter.
Today, finally.. the clouds have parted and I am on my way again! I can't tell you how many times I have knit parts of this sock, to take it out, and to go back again. Repeat. Endlessly. I am so thrilled to be moving on from this heel flap and feel extension. I wish I knew where those thoughts disappeared to for the last few weeks... but I am glad that they are back! Well, I guess I do know. The last few weeks have been hellacious at work. Finally I have had a few moments to breath again and figure out what is next up. Amazing how that can make such a difference!!